It’s the first day of May and I am going through my Spam Comments list. Over a thousands comments waiting for me to weed through. It takes me days to go through page by page. I feel bad when people take the time to comment and it takes me a while to get to them. I sometimes get a little down between the last week of April and second week of May. I have my birthday during that bracket of time. I even got to a point that I thought I was going to be 34… I than did the calculations and realized I was a year ahead. Yep that’s right I will be turning 33 years old this week (there I said it out loud).
Last year I celebrated my birthday and Mother’s Day a few weeks in between. It was my first Mother’s Day being a mom. We had a lot going on then that I wasn’t expecting much for either holiday. I made my usual routine wish list and decided not to expect much. I had a lot on my mind and I didn’t want to raise my hopes up for anything because I didn’t want to be shocked with what may or may not happen. It was also the last one I was going to have in Seattle with my family. So I was even more emotional than usual. I had to keep myself strong and not lose myself.
This year though I have tried something different. So far the last 3 days I have put some music on when I took a shower. I wanted to start the morning feeling alive and free. I wasn’t going to let getting older make me feel bad. I even looked at myself in the mirror and saw a person looking back at me. I looked past the grey streaks in my hair. I might have lost a few pounds on my face, but that was alright. I saw a little spark back into my eyes.
It has taken me two days to write this post. I am hoping that you (my readers) continue to keep up with me. I am improving and working at express myself more through this blog. I think it is helping me by getting things out of my system. I have moved the RSS tool to the top of the page. I am hoping that helps others with subscribing to my blog. If there is anything let me know.
Have a happy month of May!